I miss my mom

Today is a day filled with all sorts of emotions.
Today is the 2nd anniversary that my and Burfica's mom passed away. A year earlier I had brought her here to Texas hoping that we could help her get better as she was a train wreck health wise.
Unfortunatly within a week she was back in the hospital for a week and on hospice shortly after her admit in to the hospital.
My mom being the fighter she was fought her way out of hospice, and was very close to going to an assisted living facility instead of being stuck in a nursing home. In the end the damage done to her lungs from smoking finally took her.

I read Burf's post and like her whenever something happens I want my mommy. I want to laugh with her, cry with her and scream in anger with her. Things that can never happen again.

But at the same time I have to thank her. While not the worlds best mother, but I wonder what mom is. None... every mom just struggles along and does her best. Mom ended up divorced in a time when divorced women were considered sluts and whores. And that it was they who must have done something wrong because men were the all knowing assholes. Mom took these attitudes on head first no matter how much they hurt her. She taught Burfica and I a Fuck you attitude. If you need something bad enough nobody is going to stand in your way.
She always tried to make sure we laughed as kids. She always made sure we had food on the table even if she went hungry, and she always made sure we had cloths and shoes. Even if her shoes had duct tape on the holes on the bottoms.

With all her flaws she was a good mom. She was my mom.
And despite what she and Burf and I talked about I was the one who had to tell the doctors not to do anything for her.
My head knows it was right, my heart still ain't quite caught up with that thinking. Thank God Burfica and I are so close and there was no fighting over all that mess.

I know Burf is having a bad day to.

I love you sis

I love you mom

I miss you mom

The Philippino Gods Hate My White Ass

....what the (bleep) have I ever done to them but marry a cute little filippino guy. I'm thinking since I'm the only white person in the whole family there is this Asian plot to kill me.

EVERYTIME I eat a traditional Philippino dish I get so damn sick. At first I thought maybe it was just the mother in law trying to kill me off. But NOOOOO..... last night the scuba elf made my favorite dish called Longiniza (it's a sweet sasauge) and you have it with Rice and egg. I came out of the bedroom and it smelled horrid in the house. Hmmm maybe something burnt I though to my self. So we settle in with our plate of sasauge, some rice and a over medium egg on top of it all. 2 bites in I realize the longiniza is bad. Like food poisoning bad. I really thought at work last night for a couple hours my partner was gonna have to call the fire boys to come over and make sure I wasn't dying.

That's it....Philippino Gods....I'm not going anywhere so just stop trying to kill me. I refuse to eat any of your silly unidentifiable food anyway so put that in your eye.
HA

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!

****New Note*** A very good friend of mine has finally got off his butt and got a blog so EVERYONE go check him out here Change of Fate

Okay people that wasn't a request...GO NOW Stalk him, be snarky and generally make his life great or miserable. I owe him a few for his pratical jokes. hehehehe


A very happy new year to all my blogger buddies.
It's been a crazy couple of weeks. Christmas was good. I had to work Christmas eve night and christmas day night, so instead of cooking elf and I went to this top end resort that was having a champagne brunch.
There was a salad island, a breakfast island, a sushi island, a pasta island, a hot meat island, a bread island, cheese island, kids island and a desert island. Problaby around 3 to 4 hundred different items to choose from. And Mimosias pours liberally. Not bad. The 65 dollar fee covered free parking, all the food and drink you wanted, and the gratuity for the waiters. We spent about 2 1/2 hours out there just eating little bits here and there.
New Years eve Last night. I worked a 12 hour shift and it was non stop busy the whole night. I feel like we all got our asses handed to us on a platter. But that's to be expected on this paticular night. I have to work tonight as well. No rest for the weary. It should be a better night tonight. (fingers crossed)

I got a call from a friend last night I hadn't heard from in awhile who said he has a blog now. So HE BETTER STOP LURKING and leave a comment so we can find him and invade his blog. Oh little does he know what he's in for. Muwhaaaaahaaaa

Okay sorry so short and boring but the puppy needs played with and I have to leave for work in about 20 mintues cuz my lazy ass stayed in bed for like 10 hours today I was so wore out after last night. :-)

Happy new year all. Enjoy going back to work tomorrow.